A Sign

IM seeking that sign that everything will be okay...Has anyone seen it?  Right now IM working hard at regaining control. But fuck I can't control everything. I can't direct people and their emotions. I can't have expectations or can I? Can't I expect to be treated a certain way because of common curtisy and respect? Is that not what friendship is all about? Or is that all a lie and really it's all about talking mass shit and back stabbing to sell your soul so you can look good? I hate this world sometimes and all the so called laws of society. The codes of the expected proper conduct. IM tired of watching my every step and minding my P's and Q's. I really just want to break free for a while and perhaps add to my 5th step while trying not to add to my 9th. But instead I sit here seeking a sign....